Saturday, December 13, 2014

New Start :')

Hello ! Its's already two weeks since i enter here. And i still in my blur mood. Once i came i set up my mind "okay,here it is. New life new purpose. Everything new" but so far seems fine. Starting with the first day of college that seem to be 'krik krik '. Of course right, we still don't know our classmates name but on the second day I got acquainted with my classmates(DPM1A) . Just because my Whatsapp name Dragonarry then my nickname is DRAGON~ and everytime they call me with that name i will laugh. They are good,funny and friendly but that does not happen with my new classmates on DGU. That exactly a huge different. They seem doing their own thing and in my class does exist this type of human nature that loves tribal factions. Whatever~ That does not effect my life also as long that I am doing the right thing. Right? I am still alive . It's like "KAU2 AKU2". I can't wait for next week. Holidayyyyyy !! Every people on earth love that i guess. Going back celebrate Christmas. Yay! :D Hoping it will be memorable for this 2014 Christmas celebration because we will travel to Kota Kinabalu,Sabah. Twinnie, wait for me. I'm coming to you. HAHA. Craziness overload. My life in this college is so fucking bored. I don't have any idea on how i will cheer up my life. ==' but mostly of my friend from KV also here. Whoaa ~ so bored . but no matter which college or university you will enter soon , it just the same eventhough a bit different. If you got a desire in study and work hard to archive your goal you will success. I believe that. Every people got their own destiny on how their life is. That just depends on how they make it happen. What is important now, my final exam on April. I must get an excellent result for that. Work hard! Must perfectly score the assessment for the final exam marks also. Adios people !

Monday, September 15, 2014

i'm fucked up

The last post was in August and it's already September. omg i am such a bitch why did i forget about this i'm so sorry! :( well there are 47 days left before my spm exam and honestly, i'm freaking out. i am so fucked up i don't even know what i have been studying for 2 years i feel so stupid i feel so useless i just want to lock myself in my room and die. i don't want to sit for this stupid exam. people always ask me this annoying question "What do you want to be? where do you want to go after you finish high school? what's your target?" i might just give them stupid answers like "oh i don't know i just want to sleep all day and do nothing and die. go away. fuck off." ugh i really do not know which path should i choose and everyone just keeps confusing me.

There's only 1 month left before the huge exam!!! i'm so scared that i can't even focus when i'm studying. i don't know if i can excel in this exam and this is all because i've been so busy with fangirling and shit i've been wasting too much time. but i don't regret everything hahaha i will never regret what i did because BIGBANG makes me happy. wow that's cheesy as fuck. ew. i feel bad because i don't talk much to people nowadays. and i'm less cheerful than i have always been. and to my twinnie, i'm so sorry i didn't talk to you often. i deactivated my twitter already (but i activated it back but i'm not that active anymore) and i really miss my fangirling and i miss you too.  my mom told me that you're going to further your studies in November. i really really hope that you can come back for Christmas because i don't know what to do if you're not there with me during Christmas. it's going to be shitty without you.

Right now, all i can do is strive for my exam, and just accept whatever results i get in the future. i can only plan my life (although i suck pretty bad in planning my own life) but God knows the right way for me. 

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Life :'(

Ola. It's already August. Still got 2 months to go.*sigh*. Hey twinnies! I realise it's already 4 years since we set up this blog. Woah. Time passes quickly. We're growing. I don't know what I'm thinking right now but for sure I've lost in myself. I do not even know what i think. I just follow the flow. But deep inside me it hurt me much. Sometimes i feel like i wanna give up but still i can manage to get up with this little piece of hope. Sometimes i feel that i have fail to be a good one for them eventhough i already make them proud but that still not enough  :'( . No one can understand us because they've never been in our shoes. Talk is easier than action.Nobody want to be born as a failure. God. You know what is the best for me. I will follow the path that you have set for me. From you i come to you i return. Give me a strength heart to overcome this obstacles . **** I'm tired of this but i know my burden is just a little other than the people out there and I'm grateful for all i have. Maybe it's not my sustenance yet but better late than never right? :) if you read this twinnie, do reply my post ya. You know i always miss you dear. I know there's is no use if i cry but what can i do other than that. Only God know that.

Monday, June 16, 2014

Emptiness

Hello πŸ˜ƒ. Yeap twinnie. You're right. It's been a while now since we have not update our blog due to our own busyness and hwaitting for this life. I just don't know what to say actually but i really need you dear 😭. I miss you a lot. I'm hoping that there's a time that we can be together in our own life and forget this world for a while without the studies or problems. But that surely impossible for us.  Hoho. I feel the loneliness inside me and it really hard for me. OMG! I'm  not in depression right?

Soon you will sit for your final exam this years. So i hope you'll be alright . Eventhough you said before "mcm malas suda mau belajar" HAHAHA i feel you. But there's nothing we can do. If only money and knowledge can come by it own and we can meet that 5 idiots idols everytime we want 😍 . Hoho. They're really adorable. Opps! I should stop it before you become too crazy. Number 1 FANGIRLING. Lol. Ok. That all's for today. I'm too emo. Do you want to an emo too?  πŸ˜„ lots of love dear. Goodbye . :)