Hello there. It's been a while now. I don't even know if anyone ever read this blog anymore since i've neglected it for months. It's just so sad to leave this blog untouched so here i am :) So currently i'm struggling with my finals (which is practically ruining my life slowly and painfully). I have a hard time to manage my time between fangirling and studying. Well of course i spent my time more with fangirling bc who the hell could stand studying 24/7? I just don't get along well with books. I used to, but not anymore. I don't even know what to be when i grow up bc i'm not that ambitious. I don't even think of being a doctor or an engineer. All i want right now is to meet my idols. That's it. LOL of course i'm not serious. I just haven't figured out what my ambition is. Because right now, in this unstable state of mind, all i can ever think of is my 5 idiotic idols HAHAHA

That's all for today idk what to write anymore and i feel relieved that i can pour out all of these bc lately i don't have anyone to talk to. Everyone is fucking busy at the moment. Except me. I'm supposed to be busy but i refuse to. So goodbye :)

STILL IDK

Idk how start this. To be honest, i almost cry after reading my twin's previous post. OMG YOU REALLY ARE MY TWIN YOU CAN READ MY MIND! I'm just too obsessed lately and i really can't think of anything else other than BIGBANG. Sometimes i wonder if there are any other fangirls out there who are slightly worse than me? I really want to change because honestly i'm tired of this fandom. If you have ever been in a fandom, you'll understand this. FANWARS, SHIPWARS AND EVERYTHING. It's not that i hate this fandom but i'm just tired of all those wars, though i didn't participate it. But if you are already a part of the fandom, you'll get hurt even though you're not the one being bashed. Sometimes i just feel like reversing time and be a normal girl which is before i knew BIGBANG. But it's too hard. TOO HARD. BUT I REALLLLY WANT TO BE A NORMAL GIRL WHO CAN CONTROL HERSELF AND WORSHIP GOD INSTEAD OF WORSHIPPING HER IDOL. Yes, if you know me like she did, you'll realize that i am actually worshipping BIGBANG. LOL I EVEN TYPED THEIR NAME IN CAPITAL LETTERS.

*[NEWS] SEUNGRI'S PERFORMANCE IN GD'S CONCERT IS CANCELLED

I saw this in twitter just now and I AM SO FRUSTRATED! CAN YOU SEE HOW MUCH I CARE ABOUT THESE GUYS?! BEFORE I KNEW THEM, I DON'T EVEN GIVE A SHIT ABOUT A CELEBRITY'S HEALTH. BUT NOW. I AM SO WORRIED! QUESTIONS POPPED OUT OF MY MIND LIKE "WHERE IS HE?" "WHY DID THIS HAPPEN?" "IS HE OKAY?" "IS THIS ABOUT HIS HEALTH?" "IS HE TOO TIRED TO PERFORM?" "IS HE SICK OR SOMETHING?" If i was normal, i wouldn't care about someone who doesn't even know that exist! Being this crazy is just CRAZY! So i just hope i can change for my own good. No, not just hope. I will change. I mean, i won't stop loving BIGBANG. But hey, THEY AREN'T GOD. So i'm gonna start balancing myself between fangirling and serving God. Please pray for me twinnie TT______TT

TTM

Hello bloggers ! :D I don't know how to start but my mind want me to share it . It seems like i can't keep it myself , :D I started know him last year when i joining the camp that i told in my post before this. But I'm not the one who started everything. He ask for my phone number on the last day of the camp but i did not give him . He struggle to get my phone number from other . Than finally, he succeed . :D , He become my TTM . (...............................................................................................................................................................) there's some thing that i can't tell it here , only my twin know bout it . Right dear ? :D, This year , there was a boy who want to know me and be my friend . That time , we started know when the KAT at Betong on March, I forgot already the date . He's good . But , he took my number from my friend phone without telling me,that can be told as a Voleur . Search the meaning at mister Google if you don't understand it . It's not fair compared with the previous one . But,I have always been sincere in making friends with people who want to be friends with me . I think he have crush on me , Yes , he does . :D . Oh no , what a feeling ! The moment my TTM know bout it , he change a bit and jealous . I don't know what to do , i can't loss both of them . They are my friend . Of course it hard for me . (....................................................................................) I shorten the story . :D But , i love my TTM . :p . THE END~

  

My other twin is too addicted about this boy band in Korea , +_+ . Big Bang . Actually, me too . but I'm not that worst. Oh God , Forgive the sins that she do, sometimes she might forget you but i know someday she can change . Have mercy on her . Be though sister ! you can change it .

#Capital R

Crush Lyrics

David Archuleta

[Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it really just another crush?Has it ever crossed your mind When we're hanging, spending time? Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?]

Big Bang <3 p="">

IDK

So... Finally I REMEMBER to update my blog. This blog has been abandoned for like.. years maybe? I'm too busy with my school work, chores and my fandom. Well I'm a crazy teenage girl and I believe that other teenagers out there are fans of some boybands too. As for me, I AM IN LOVE WITH BIGBANG. If you don't know what is BIGBANG or who is BIGBANG, you better google it. However, being a fan doesn't make me a bad person. That's not the reason why I'm being lazy. In fact, they are somehow my motivation. To be honest, I CAN'T STUDY OR DO ANYTHING WITHOUT LISTENING TO THEIR SONGS OR WATCHING THEIR VIDEOS. SERIOUSLY. Idk what kind of spirit had possessed me till I became this obsessed. I am lazy because there are just so many things to do! Endless homework and exams! *sigh* Oh well. Never mind. I'll get over it. Besides, I'm not the only one who's suffering. Many students out there are half-dead too. To all students out there, I wish you all the best and good luck in your survival!

AND LAST NIGHT. LAST NIGHT I HAD THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE! MY BIAS G-DRAGON JUST KISSED A FAN'S HAND DURING HIS CONCERT IN HONG KONG! Now tell me, WHICH FANGIRL ON EARTH WOULDN'T BE JEALOUS? Okay, I'm not that mad I ADMIT IT, I AM MAD. I'm not mad at GD, though. But seriously, I envy that lucky fan and the fact that I'm not that lucky JUST HURTS TOO MUCH! I MEAN, WHY CAN'T I BE LUCKY JUST FOR ONCE?! I JUST WANT TO BE FCKING LUCKY! I WONDER IF THAT VIP (A FAN OF BIGBANG IS CALLED A VIP) IS STILL ALIVE. IF GD EVER, EVER KISSED MY HAND, OMFG I DON'T THINK I CAN BREATHE ANYMORE.

OK this is kind of over-reacting. I should die stop now and continue studying. UGH. LIFE. HOW WORSE CAN IT BE?

*HOW DID I ACTUALLY FALL IN LOVE WITH THESE 5 BADASS?

WHY AM I SO STUPID?! WHY DO I HAVE TO STUDY TO BE INTELLIGENT?! CAN I JUST QUIT SCHOOL AND DIE RIGHT NOW?! OMG SERIOUSLY WHYYYYYY???!!!!! I HATE THIS I HATE MY LIFE I HATE EVERYTHING WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE RIGHT NOW

Life :/

Hi peeps ! I feel grateful because i got chance to update this blog again . Thanks to my other twins who sometime updates this blog , :D . Tomorrow is Chinese New Year, So, Happy Chinese New Year to those who celebrate it.You know i have a new interest, i love Superman . I don't know why i like the logo, It look awesome and pretty ! :D very attractive ! I hope that somebody will give me a birthday cake which has a superman logo on top of it. That will be a memorable birthday . :D . I don't have any idea already , I just have picture that i want to post . Hope all of you enjoy it . :p

I don't know why i post this picture but,i think it's true because usually girl is so sensitive. If they fall in love with someone,even the boy already had girlfriend,they rather not to tell but keep it by itself and telling herself
"that only a crush,not need to tell him,as long that he happy,its okay". But inside her,nobody knows.

 

I agree with this quotes! 

This is SUPERMAN logo .

 Okay, that all for tonight . :D

Tears no more

No matter how hard i try, no matter how much i endure this, nothing will change. It's still the same. I just have to accept the fact. Even though it hurts so bad. I'm not gonna complain about this anymore. 'Cause i made a promise to myself that i will never ever cry again. 'Cause I've wasted my tears too much in 2012. Too much :') And i won't let 2013 to enjoy the satisfaction of seeing me crying. In brief, I'm happy now, forever and always! Yay! :D