!! Crazy !!

Trapped inside my own head
With nothing but my own fevered dreams to comfort me.
I know the pain of the madman;
He lives inside of me.
I've felt the strength of demons
And the weakness of self- preservation.
And hope. Hope.
Hey, parents, do you know where your kids are tonight?
Are they locked away inside of themselves?
Are their minds slipping away?
Mama hen, mama hen . . .
The fox has taken your baby again.
Precious minds are a shame to waste
Memories are forgotten in haste.
I am losing all that is me . . .
Yet gaining something entirely different.
Something that acts like an animal
And speaks like God.
Comforts me like a best friend
And loves me like its child.
I am its child.
An innocent brat, ready for its teachings.
Ready to do what is told to me.
Believing all that is said to me.
Taking in all.
And living off of my fevered dreams. :D

Silence, Emptiness and Confusion

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained ...

I'm sick of it !!! ~X(

That's it ! I've had enough! I'm sick of the chores! I'm tired doing all those laundries ! I'm bored of the dishes !!! And mostly,I hate being the slave of my brother !!! See,mom asked him to wash his dirty,smelly,stupid lousy shoes. But it turned out to be ME cleaning that stupid stuff ! That bastard ! Always getting into my way !! Just as I thought that he was starting to be nice,he returned to his sickin' behaviour! Oh,great. Now it's raining. And I'm all alone in the house!! But that's better than have to see my brother's face. He sucks! Just wait,I'll tell mom that your shoes were cleaned by me! Hate you,hate you,hate you !!!!! My siblings never understand what I felt. They always ignore me. Same with my parents! They used to ignore me and they didn't care 'bout me. All they look for just my little sis and my brother. Me? No,they only want me to stay alive so that I will be their slave forever!!! Arghh !! I wish I could get out of this place! I want my world! MY freedom ! My only rules! My destiny ! My time !!!! But that doesn't mean I'm turning to be a big fat villain,though. I just want freedom and I'm sick of all the works! I don't want to be ignored all the time! God,just hear me. Please understand me.. :(

Just let me do whatever I want,whenever I want,okay? :)
♥ ♥ ♥

Finallly..

Greetings! I succeeded applying a new template for my beloved blog! We've been awake all night long searching for the best template..Until we found this one,which is "in our taste"..got it? So,as days passes by,we're trying to put some music to this blog and we decided to put the song White Horse.. :) It gives the feeling of sadness to readers..(Well,maybe,not everybody)..Well,I don't have anything to say now..Just Goodbye!

So,can you see it?

Thank goodness..The rain had gone away !! I'm surrounded by invisible figures with a boring expression now..It's entering my mind..It's making me feel bored with all things around me..Hurh...I'm watching a movie called "Resident Evil : Afterlife" now..It's interesting!! Killing people with all the blood around...Ohhh..I love it but I hate it..Can you see it?? Get it?? I love to see it in the movies but I hate seeing it in my real world..Because. . . . . . . . . .Seeing blood for a few secs can make me faint of frights!! Hehehe.. I'm an average girl with kinda weird path of life and feelings..I'm me..You're you..But why can't I be like you?!!! Or anybody else??!!! Why?? Am I the only one in the world with an "alien-liked" type?? I wanna go out of this body n mind..I wanna know what are the other people are thinking..So,can you see what I mean?? I bet you don't,cause nobody can understand my feelings [more like my piece of mind]..Guess I'll just have to move on with this alien brain and feelings..