Please, Don't Make Me Do This!

I hate being nagged . I hate being shouted by someone . People just can't understand my feelings! Yes, I always say something bad to people but I sometimes I don't mean it . And some of my words are insulting people, but I never meant to insult them like that . Even my mother don't know how I felt . Whoa, don't get me wrong . I never wanted to be a bad girl! No way! But this is the truth . Nobody understands how I felt . Only God knows :) To put it simple, or, in other words, what I said are mostly not exactly what I was feeling . So people misunderstood it so easily . No, from the start, they NEVER understand! I'm telling the truth . I'm not earning sympathies from all the readers, but hey, it's my diary, right? I just want to share my feelings and my thoughts . So when somebody read this blog, at least I'm happy `cause I managed to tell people and now they knew my feelings and my thoughts . Yeah, I really appreciate those who read this :)

Gonna work hard ;D

Hello, people xD ! It's October now and my excel exam is getting nearer. Some teachers say it's on 31st of October but some students say it's on 13th and 20th of October. But it doesn't matter. (It really matters, actually) I just have to work on it and study hard. I have to give my very best shot on this exam. I have to get straight A's in this exam. That is a must. I'm getting weak on Maths subject. So I need to do more and more exercise on this. Besides, I discovered that I need some improvement on essay writing. English and Malay. Aaarrrggghh! Too many things to do! The form 1 subjects must be revised, too! I wonder if I can survive with these kind of stress ;( Hope I can cover all the topics perfectly. God, please give me enough time! Wish me luck, guys! :DD *so that explains my hiatus mode =]

An embarassing moment

It happens yesterday at Signature in Karamunsing. I carried a purse with a single hand, 'cause i like it that way. But little did I know, that the purse just slipped off from my hand ! How careless! No wonder I felt uneasy for a little while. While I was looking for some items, my mom asked me anxiously, "Is your purse still with you, dear?" . Then I realized that I was not holding my purse. It really freaked me out and I was really shocked at that time. I said, "No. It's not with me." and the Signature staff told me, "We found a purse and brought it to the counter." So I immediately went to the counter and get my purse. Thanks, God! But that didn't cheer my dad off. He was completely mad. He didn't say a single word about it while we were in the shop. Yeah, he's a hot-tempered man. In the car, I was scolded for being so careless all the time. And I heard something that really insulted me. But it doesn't matter. I think God is trying to teach me some lesson so that I can be more careful next time. By the way, it's the first time that I lost a purse. Thinking that as an important event, I had the urge to share about it. I've been thinking on what to write since yesterday!

Addicted to something :P

Hi there, readers! It's been some time since I've broken up with him . Now I don't know what to do . Somehow I feel empty . I mean, now my love story has ended . Did it really ended? Am I supposed to chase after him or try to not falling in love again? If I'm in love with someone, is it a sin? So, that's the point . I am still trapped in this situation. Will I be happy if I love him but he doesn't love me? I have no idea. Anyway , as I were saying in my post title, I'm addicted to something . It's The Glee Project . I have just watched the videos at YouTube and found it really interesting . They were so awesome and amazing! I like the one named Damian McGinty . His voice is so beautiful and he's a cute guy . Well, maybe just a "like" , not a crush . Ahaha :DD I'm amazed by his voice . This is one of the videos that I like the most . Take a look :)

And this one is nice , too =]

Longing to break free :D

Yeap, I'm waiting for this very moment. Waiting to be free from all the complicated problems. Yes, I have broken up with my "teddy bear" !!!!!! I don't know what it is, but I felt sorrowful and satisfied (happy) at the same time. Crazy, isn't it? We broke up just because of a very simple matter. He accused me of being unfaithful ! How dare him ! Go to hell ! WTH ! Arrggghh~! He has no rights to say that. I've tried so hard, very hard to forget the another him, just because of my "teddy bear". But he didn't realize it ! He said that the way I talk to him is changing, as if I don't want him anymore. But he never know! He never understand! My way of loving is not about romance ! He likes romance but I don't ! Besides, I'm so damn busy right now and I don't have time to text him. However, that doesn't mean I'm unfaithful, right ??!

We had a really serious fight back then. With more that 30 messages! :O ahaha XD but I'm proud with that, honestly. :P On the other night, he didn't text me after school. So I let it be. I don't even care ! But then I remembered about what my friend told me. She said that I should calm him down and talk to him in a nice way. (Not in fighting mode) So, I told him that I love him even though he hates me. But he just said, "Oh yeah? It's so touching" . Don't you feel angry if someone says like that to you when you're honestly sincere? Arrrggghhh~!!! And I'm like, "Yeah, you should cut your head off" . So without thinking of the consequences, I decided to break up 'cause I'm really mad at him. How dare he underestimate my love like that?!! I told him, "Alright, okay . If that's the case, it's over. Don't ever think of it again!" . Oh, I still remember the time. It's 10.06 pm, 6 September 2011. Hahaha :D After that, there was still a fight betwenn the two of us.

So, the conclusion is, I hate Form 1 boys. I hate them so much! They're so immature! Go away, you useless little brat ! I hate you ! Now I'm free ! Hoorays ! Thank God !

I'm not going to stress over you anymore, it isn't worth it.
I tried to work something out, but you just ignored it.
I'm not trying to say I don't want you, because I definitely do.
All I'm saying is I'm DONE chasing after you.