An embarassing moment

It happens yesterday at Signature in Karamunsing. I carried a purse with a single hand, 'cause i like it that way. But little did I know, that the purse just slipped off from my hand ! How careless! No wonder I felt uneasy for a little while. While I was looking for some items, my mom asked me anxiously, "Is your purse still with you, dear?" . Then I realized that I was not holding my purse. It really freaked me out and I was really shocked at that time. I said, "No. It's not with me." and the Signature staff told me, "We found a purse and brought it to the counter." So I immediately went to the counter and get my purse. Thanks, God! But that didn't cheer my dad off. He was completely mad. He didn't say a single word about it while we were in the shop. Yeah, he's a hot-tempered man. In the car, I was scolded for being so careless all the time. And I heard something that really insulted me. But it doesn't matter. I think God is trying to teach me some lesson so that I can be more careful next time. By the way, it's the first time that I lost a purse. Thinking that as an important event, I had the urge to share about it. I've been thinking on what to write since yesterday!

Addicted to something :P

Hi there, readers! It's been some time since I've broken up with him . Now I don't know what to do . Somehow I feel empty . I mean, now my love story has ended . Did it really ended? Am I supposed to chase after him or try to not falling in love again? If I'm in love with someone, is it a sin? So, that's the point . I am still trapped in this situation. Will I be happy if I love him but he doesn't love me? I have no idea. Anyway , as I were saying in my post title, I'm addicted to something . It's The Glee Project . I have just watched the videos at YouTube and found it really interesting . They were so awesome and amazing! I like the one named Damian McGinty . His voice is so beautiful and he's a cute guy . Well, maybe just a "like" , not a crush . Ahaha :DD I'm amazed by his voice . This is one of the videos that I like the most . Take a look :)

And this one is nice , too =]

Longing to break free :D

Yeap, I'm waiting for this very moment. Waiting to be free from all the complicated problems. Yes, I have broken up with my "teddy bear" !!!!!! I don't know what it is, but I felt sorrowful and satisfied (happy) at the same time. Crazy, isn't it? We broke up just because of a very simple matter. He accused me of being unfaithful ! How dare him ! Go to hell ! WTH ! Arrggghh~! He has no rights to say that. I've tried so hard, very hard to forget the another him, just because of my "teddy bear". But he didn't realize it ! He said that the way I talk to him is changing, as if I don't want him anymore. But he never know! He never understand! My way of loving is not about romance ! He likes romance but I don't ! Besides, I'm so damn busy right now and I don't have time to text him. However, that doesn't mean I'm unfaithful, right ??!

We had a really serious fight back then. With more that 30 messages! :O ahaha XD but I'm proud with that, honestly. :P On the other night, he didn't text me after school. So I let it be. I don't even care ! But then I remembered about what my friend told me. She said that I should calm him down and talk to him in a nice way. (Not in fighting mode) So, I told him that I love him even though he hates me. But he just said, "Oh yeah? It's so touching" . Don't you feel angry if someone says like that to you when you're honestly sincere? Arrrggghhh~!!! And I'm like, "Yeah, you should cut your head off" . So without thinking of the consequences, I decided to break up 'cause I'm really mad at him. How dare he underestimate my love like that?!! I told him, "Alright, okay . If that's the case, it's over. Don't ever think of it again!" . Oh, I still remember the time. It's 10.06 pm, 6 September 2011. Hahaha :D After that, there was still a fight betwenn the two of us.

So, the conclusion is, I hate Form 1 boys. I hate them so much! They're so immature! Go away, you useless little brat ! I hate you ! Now I'm free ! Hoorays ! Thank God !

I'm not going to stress over you anymore, it isn't worth it.
I tried to work something out, but you just ignored it.
I'm not trying to say I don't want you, because I definitely do.
All I'm saying is I'm DONE chasing after you.

Color quiz :)

Hello there :) This is a post which I took from Chelsea's blog . I'm so grateful . Since I'm so damn bored and don't know what to post, so I go blogwalking and saw her post . (Really , thank you , affie :DD) So here it is: 

Your Existing Situation
Stressed and confused about love, family and my rights. I want to be loved by the one that I adored so much. I want him to love me just like I loved him with all my heart.


Your Stress Sources
Always be the one who's making horrible mistakes. Not satisfied with myself as I was always been blamed for everything happened. Always being isolated from friends and families.


Your Restrained Characteristics
Being so aggresive and ignorant, as well as annoying. Always shout out opinions and never want to give up in a quarrel or a fight, even with my family.


Your Desired Objective
To be the best among the best and wish to be a perfect human being although it's not possible. Wants to be a girl who doesn't care about what people think of her. Wants to be someone who makes no mistakes and so clever. A girl who was adored all the time and never been underestimated. Wants to be happy, confident and more alive on every single day.


Your Actual Problem
Never had the chance to spit out my own decisions, never had the time to be alone and feel the peace in my life, never had the chance to GET what I want. Least loved by family. Never had full attention from everyone around. Never had the opportunity to be understood and never ever had the chance to have someone to be with, someone who can bear with my disabilities, someone who can be by my side and someone who can love me sincerely.

Your Actual Problem #2
Afraid to end up in hell. Feeling underestimated by someone better than me. Feeling lonely every time as if I'm alone in this whole wide world. Feeling like a stupid person. Feeling like an ugly, naughty and bad girl. 

I just want a happy and peaceful life. That's all ;)

Missing You Today ..

First:


Hi there,today when in my way to the church,i saw him.That time they had just finished cleaning the grave.He still same as before.No change but kinda higher a little bit . Hurmmm.. I miss the moment,our memory.I just can't even forget him.Eventhough we dont have any relantionship already.But i stil hope that some day we can talk,laugh go outing together with our friends .. X) .and the most important i can see his smile after a long time i never seen that smile .. I really miss that smile .. TT_TT


second:


Tell my why do things have to change when they were perfect from the start...?
Why do we have to lose everything that we have always been holding onto,
I kept thinking that this loneliness, this sadness, this.. emptiness would be gone if I kept you by my side. But now, I realize that even though something is near you.. they feel.. distant. Was it because I was forcing them to continue staying by my side? Was it because.. because you don't feel the way I wanted you too. Was it because.. was it because I was too selfish to realize what you truly felt? Was it because.. I was always focusing on my feelings, that I didn't even have the time to consider what YOU felt? Or was it because.. you saw right through me..?i always wonder if i died if anybody would miss me..i feel alone.i wonder since nobody seems to even care about my feelings and they just assume i am fine, would anybody even notice if some day i just disappear??